Life has a funny way of knocking you down with no explanation. Life also has a way of giving you the best gift you ever could imagine. Like when a child holds your hand, the perfect song that comes on the radio, an old friend getting in touch, or simply having amazing people that surround you in your life when any situation comes up.
I’m very lucky that I have such amazing and understanding people in my life. They have held me when I felt I couldn’t stand, and have made me laugh in the moments when all I thought I could do was let the tears fall like rain. I have been embraced with love, acceptance, laughter, and joy over the past few weeks.
To all of you who have put aside time to check in with me and be there through the good and the bad times. I thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Now an update on my life as it is in this moment: I’m still very single (I’m talking to you Chris Evans), I’m taking time to do the things I love, and I’m working toward being a healthier and better person.
I’ve always enjoyed the fall, and even though this year has had it’s rough moments it still has brought me joy. I want to share with you a little thing I wrote 10 years ago, it made me happy to read it again and I hope that you enjoy it.
The Colour Orange
The colour of pumpkins, fall leaves, sunrises, sunsets, and wide load signs. A colour that when used on billboard signs and advertisements represents happiness and joy, things I understand.
I believe I love the colour orange because it reminds me of the fall, my favourite time of year other than spring. And although spring is filled with pastel colours, I will always love the fall.
Fall is the time of year when we reminisce about the passing year, looking back over the ups and downs to try to paint a beautiful picture in our minds before the snow falls to the ground. A time to be thankful for the good times and the bad. A time to be thankful for the center, the heart of the year, since the beginning is too far back to see, and the end is barely discernable due to the wind and snow that winter seems to bring to our lives
The blissful colour orange is represented in the fall mostly by the thanksgiving dinner. Rows upon rows of food, too much pumpkin pie, rusted leaves falling off the branches of the trees, and a gentle orange hue hangs in the air fro appropriately scented candles and a fire in the fireplace.
Orange is comfortable.
Orange is a bright, happy colour. It brings a smile to my face on a rainy day, yet it seems so unappreciated by the average person. People generally use colour orange to express joy, happiness, fun, love, brightness, laughter and good taste. It seems to fit in those things as well.
Orange is my favourite colour. It seems to be knit into me as my favourite colour. People I know have expressed that I resemble the colour orange (not in appearance, thank goodness), but that I possess some qualities of the colour orange. It’s boldness, brightness, laughter, joy, fun, strength an good taste. I am flattered by this but I must object. I will forever admire and love it, but I will never be the colour orange. – Libby Toma, 2007
As I’ve grown up I’ve felt like theses statements still are true. Fall is can be a time to let the bad things fall away and create a clean slate in the fallen snow (watch out for where the dogs have been), or it can be a time to fall in love or start something new through the winter ad watch it bloom in the spring.
Sometimes it’s both.
I don’t know what the future holds, or what I may choose to do with the with the clean slate, but I’m going to work hard on the things that I love and welcome whatever may come my way this winter.
So in conclusion I still love the colour orange, I still love the fall, Pumpkin Chai is amazing, and I’m still going to be that optimistic weirdo I’ve always been.
But I will never be the colour orange.
Oh and by the way, Do you wanna build a snowman?