Hello friends, I know that I have been absent recently and I’m sorry about that.
Do you ever have a time in your life, or a thought that won’t leave you alone. And it all comes down to the belief that you have nothing to say?
Growing up as a Disney fan I have always kept the line “If you can’t say anything nice, don’t say nothing at all” in the back of my mind, and even in my heart. I believe that it’s good advice, and I also believe that positivity is the best way to get through this sometimes chaotic and crazy life.
With that said, my life has been hard lately.
I have health problems due to a car accident that are finally being dealt with, and even though that is a big plus, the doctor appointments are taking a great deal of my time. And when they are all done, I’m very warn out.
Another fun part about getting in to finding the “fix” for all of this, is that I am on new medications that also make my life a little loopy. It’s a lot to take in, and I’m trying to keep my head up and keep a smile on my face.
But some days it’s very hard.
Even through all of these new changes and filled schedules, I have truly missed writing my blog, and sharing with you some of my quirky opinions. Everything important takes dedication and work. And even though writing may some days seem easy to me, on other days it’s difficult to sit here and try to think of some witty subjects or stories to share with you.
So let’s just sit down with a beverage of your choice, and I’ll tell you what’s happening with me.
I have a dream. It’s always been a big dream of mine to complete a novel, screenplay, or some extravagant writing/musical project. And I’m not going to lie, my name in lights would look awesome.
At least in my opinion.
But here is the catch. I have that hardest time with the follow through. I will start off strong, schedules and organizational tools in hand to get me going and on the right track. But without really recognizing it, I slowly start to fade away. Perhaps it’s a great deal of self doubt, maybe I let life get in the way, or perhaps I simply give up. But in any case it is something I need to work on, and I need to work on it now.
I have been learning about how to be assertive and how to take care of my needs in a healthy way. And with this type of training, I have really looked deep into my behavior that I put other’s needs ahead of my own. And although I don’t want to completely turn away from those who need support, I need to set boundaries in order to chase the dreams I’ve had for years.
These dreams of writing and sharing the stories I’ve held in my heart, are very important. And not only do I need to make a leap into the unknown and adventure, I need to keep leaping into it and continue towards the dream in my heart.
I need to see the magical lanterns that appear every year. And then when I do that, I have the choice to find a new dream. Whatever that may be.
But for right now I have the dream to continue to write on my various projects and keep pushing myself to go beyond the limits that my mind and self esteem keep bringing up.
Have you ever had something that you’ve wanted more than anything, and then something so silly or insignificant stops you in your tracks? Have you every been afraid of finishing a project or task in the fear that when it’s completed you won’t know what you’ll do without it?
If you haven’t notice the theme from Disney’s Tangled yet, I will make it even more apparent by quoting it.
Rapunzel and Eugene are in the boat and Rapunzel is about to see the lanterns up close for the first time.
Eugene: “Are you ok?”
Rapunzel: “I’m terrified.”
Eugene: ” Why?”
Rapunzel: “I’ve been looking out a window for eighteen years, dreaming about what it might feel like when those lights rise in the sky. What if it’s not everything I dreamed it would be?”
Eugene: “It will be”
Rapunzel: “And what if it is? What do I do then?”
Eugene: “Well that’s the good part I guess. You get to go find a new dream.”
Don’t be afraid to find a new dream. In fact dream big and chase those dreams, you never know where you might end up.
Somewhere amazing, I bet.